Myspace has haunted me forever...now...

Alright, this is really long, but trust me, if you start to read over it, it's the most horrifying thing to ever come out of Myspace. One of my friends posted it as a bulletin on her page, and I began to read over it...and wow, there are a lot of disturbed individuals out there with some serious secrets.

Once you start reading, you'll find it hard to stop.

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Pick a empty number 1-300 and write a secret. Don't tell anyone your number it's a secret. Just repost when done, everyone has a secret


1. I definitely have an eating disorder. sometimes it's bulimia, sometimes I don't eat for a few days at a time.
2.I still love him...
3.no matter how much you hate yourself or hate others, HE will always be there for you. no matter what you have done to your body, HE will still take you in. no matter how whorish you are, not matter how gay you are, no matter what you are thinking, HE loves you
JESUS LOVES YOU
4. You were never any good at sex.
5. I love a girl that is to pretty, to young, and to good for me. (no, not Hannah Montana)
6. I used to believe John Smith from Disney's Pocahontas was hot.
7. deep down inside, I know when they call me a slut, they're right.
8.i know, me too.
9. I'm not so sure about how I feel about my boyfriend. He's my dream man.. but he's just so far away, and I don't know if I could ever make it work. =(
10.I feel like I'm just going through the motions with you...and I've already found and lost the one for me. Also, #133 needs some serious counceling.
11. I hate my brother for being "better" than me no matter what.
12. i dont think i love myself
13. The biggest mistake of my life has been coming here to go to college, and not going farther away, even though I can't handle being away. And I deleted someone else's secret to put this one up. oops.
14. I'm afraid you will leave me because my body changed since I had our baby, i'm self concious about myself plus I hate your mom!!!
15. I always used to think that the Disney character Aladdin was hot.
16.I lost my virginity at 14 because i thought he would leave me if i didnt have sex with him. bastard.
17.I dont know who my sons father is.
18.i know i'm a whore, and apart of me likes it.
19.im still in love with my ex who hasnt talked to me since and ive tried to forget every single thing about him so i cant miss him..you cant miss what you forget
20.i have been cheated on so many times, that now i just expect it to happen.
21. i want to tell you so bad that i dont want to be your best friend or feel like a sister to you anymore, i want you to know that i am madly in love with you, and have been for over two years.
22. im truly in love with my boyfriend. .
23. I'm addicted to heroin
23. sometimes I think I'll always be single, by choice.
24. i literally hate all of my friends. i dont like talking to them hanging out with them or anything and i wish theyd all leave me alone
25.all i want is to find a girl that will appriciate me and care for me in the way that i would care for them but im indecisive and thats the reason i dont try and meet new people, i want the perfect girl to find me...love is not on my side
26.I have seriously thought about cheating on my husband, but, haven't yet.
27.I only love him when I'm drunk or high
28.I have slept with two guys in the same day.
29. Sometimes I worry that I'm not good for you and it freaks me out because I'm scared that you could be just as happy without me
30. I deserve better, so I don't know why I stay with you!
31. I love her with my everything
32. I am jealous of everyone and everything around me.
33. i have low self esteem
34. when I'm with my boyfriend and he touches, kisses, or holds me I pretend its you so I can get by
35. I hate my life.
36.I told a liars girlfriend i was over him... Im not.. then i go over to another crush and im all over him wishing it was the liar.. even though he lied!
37. My best friend blows me off so much but I bend over backwards when she finally wants to chill.....why?
38. I would do it just for you... I just wish I knew why, you don't deserve it. But I just want to do it and maybe you'll realize how awful you treat me.
39.iim 0nly 13 and ii have been sm0king f0r 5 years
41. I'm jealous that you have someone treating you so well, and I have nobody.
42. I pretend that I'm not thinking about him all the time.
44. I think I'm in love with my best friend...we're both girls.
45. sometimes I wish my girlfriend's best friend would disappear
46. I bought razorblades again. I used them again. I'm glad it's getting colder out so I can wear long sleeves.
47. I lie all the time. it's so bad, it's like no one knows the real me. NO ONE
50. this is his football number. I'll never forget your smile, that night. it was the most perfect thing i've ever seen. I want to see it again, I want to be yours; you don't know it yet.
51. I will never have sex with the best lover of my life again, because I gave him an STD. And I shouldn't feel at fault, but I pretty much feel like a dirty whore.
52. Even though I said I want to take it slow, I want to have sex with her so bad.
53. I pretend that my boyfriend and friends didn't die, they just drifted away from me. I miss them to much.......
54. I smile all the time to make people stop worrying about me
56. I lost the most important people in my life for the one I think I might love.
57. I dont know why I even like my boyfriend.
59. Up until last week all I wanted was to die.
60. I have never trusted a girlfriend
61.I'm scared you really don't love me you're just settling. I think you are still in love with your married ex.
62. My room mate is a annoying fucktard
63. I am not proud of anything or anyone I've ever dated in the past. I let girls manipulate me. I liked girls for the wrong reasons. I was an alcoholic and didn't think clearly.
64. I don't like peanuts
65. I don't either.
66. im so incredibly lazy
67. I'm leading all three of them on and I won't even date any of them.
68.i love school
69. I've gotton eatin out by a dog. yeah i regret it, but i don't know why. was that wrong
70. I'm bisexual.
71. My credit card is to the limit
72. I kinda miss my ex
73. i only date skinny girls. very skinny girls
74. i wish i was a skinny girl a very skinny girl
75.im in love the most wonderful girl that i'd do anything for, but im such a fuck up i cant have her anymore. and it hurts even to breath when i think of her. i really almost wanna die!!
76. I have cancer and havent told anybody yet.
77. I hate my breasts. I wish I had a better body.
78.im 17 and i hooked up with a 21 year old at a rave
79. I really screwed you over, and I'm sorry. but now that you're talking shit about me behind my back, the only thing I want to do is ruin your life.
80. everything you tell me i tell the one person you dont want me to tell
81. i really want you but i know you dont want me that way,
82. I wish I never gave him a second chance.
83. I lost my virginity to my exes best friend
84. I still think about you every single day, and if you only knew how often I prayed to be with you again someday. I'm afraid I'll never stop being in love with you.
85. i'm pretty much dead inside. i blame her for making me feel like shit for so long.
88. I'm 15 and I've never even held hands with a guy.
90. If I really wanted to be with you right now, I would be.
91. he broke my fuckin heart so i cut my wrists and hopes he notices one day to see if hed even care
92. sometimes I'd rather be single
93. yeah, sometimes I'd rather be too.
95.I fart a lot and blame it on others
96. I'm a virgin at 25... will sex ever happen?
97. I'm so tired of guys sweet talking me into stuff.
98. He was the first boy to take my breath away, and it seems he has taken advantage of that.
99.Until I was 18...I put concerts on for my dog in my living room.
100. I have an std and don't use condoms
101. I am definitely not a lesbian, but watching girls on the internet makes me really horny so I masturbate.
102. Sometimes his disconnection makes me feel unwanted.
104. You've screwed me over so many times in the worst twisted ways.. But I would choose you over anyone that comes along. Everytime.
105. And I fool around with other guys to make myself feel better about what you did, hoping you will get jealous and want to take me back.
107. I would have gone further last night.
111. I love him so much but I dont trust him he lies to me all the time.
113. I love you. But I want out.
114. My mom hits me.
115. I have the worst "best friend" in the history of best friends, she's a lying snake and I one day hope she gets what she deserves.
116. I'd kill her if I had the chance. just for taking you away from me. bitch.
117. *John is alive still.* BELIEVE
118. I don't tell my husband about all of my credit card debt and spending.
119. I've filled in like 3 of these already.
120. I'm a closet anorexic, because I'm still fat. If I was thin, I'd brag about it.
121. im falling for my coworker
122. I and my gf are trying to have a kid ...
123. I used to lie about having sex with a lot of men when I was a virgin.
124. I think I might be bisexual.
125. I wish I was skinny so that I could get the one I want.
126. I'm scared that we're moving too fast for our age.
127. You weren't good in bed.
128. I don't think youre very good at kissing.
130. I can't wait to have sex.
131. I lost my virginity, just so I could say I did.
132. I wouldnt wait a second to do things to you even though you are married.
133. I secretly fantasize about children. I am an adult.
135. i like my friend's girlfriend
136. I cheated on you.
137. I hate # 136! i have been cheated on 4 times! fuck you!
138. I'm so afraid what he thinks about the age difference.. I want him so bad
140. i'm in love with a girl that is with someone right now and we make love at least 3 times a week if not more
141. I get stoned all the time so I can forget how I really feel about the world
142. I told my family i was pregnate to get money for an abortion to get my boyfriend out of jail
144. i had sex for the first time, i skipped 2 months of my period, but then had what i think was a miscarriage at home.
145. please stop talking to me. just move on with your life. I can't take this push pull bullshit and wondering if things will ever happen.
146. I have been raped twice by two different guys.. I never told anyone.
147. My boyfriend cheated on me with a hooker. I must of been a terrible fuck.
148. Whenever I see him sign on line, my heart still skips a beat.
149. I shaved my balls
151. I really want to see you again.
152. I am not as strong as you think I am.
154. I cant get over the fact that you lied to me, and I hold it against you.
156. I think I am beautiful and I can stare at my myspace pictures for hours.
157.I think women are better off without men. All they are needed for is their sperm, other then that they're good for nothing.
159. I still have feelings for my ex-crush but i'm starting 2 have new feelings 4 my really good guy friend......n my friend kinda likes him 2......ugh.....
160. he convinced me to have sex, told me he loved me, stole my dignity, self respect and i dont think he knows that
161.He didn't finish cause i told him to stop cause he thought no condom was okay.
163. I don't eat for a few days at a time cause I think im fat.
164.I'm having second thoughts about being with him because I care what other people think of me too much :/
165. I had an abortion and told everyone its a miscarriage, because i hate the father of the baby
166. I would do almost anything for your attention.
168. I hate my family, and I don't trust my best friend.
169. I wish I had never lost my virginity to you
171. I wish nobody would know my secret past. I have a hard time remembering who knows my secrets, and who only knows my present.
172. I secretly hate one of my best friends. I refuse to hang out with her with other guys because she always ignores me and she KNOWS shes prettier than me. sometimes, I wish I could make her ugly.
173.i think i love you...i know i care about you..but i cant help but know that i would be ok without you and sometimes...i wanna be without you. especially lately.
175. I think I might be gay. It scares me, but also it excites me and makes me happy. It makes sense too. but I'm still not sure. I wish I had someone to tell
176. He hits me.
178. I hate how all your pictures are with her when you promised them to be with me
180. i lift weights everyday because if i dont i get bad anxiety!
181. I like these secert things, they're fun. This is the third one I've reposted.
182. I think I should be thinner, even though I'm stick thin to begin with.
184. I like 2 guys at the same time!!!!!!
185. I want to marry him one day
186.I have cheated on you 3 times.
187. I started drinking and smoking when my parents got divorced.
188.i love this boy justin. like his body is so sexy and i wanted to rape him today when i saw him!!! lol.
189. I wish things could be how they used to be. When she still chose me.
190. Cigarettes make me feel beautiful.
191. I broke up with you because you were freakishly obbssed with me... but I didn't tell you that.
192. I like girls that have curves :D
193. I'm a lesbian that wants to fuck girls all the time. i wanna be a guy soo bad. yet, i love guys too. and i love to fuck them and give them boners
and i love to kiss them and fuck them. . am i lesbian, or straight??? i seriously dont even know. . oh, and i agree with #178, #133 needs some serious mental help.
194. I'm afraid that, if I'm not with him...he'll be happier than when he was with me.
195. You were my first, and I said you were my 5th
196. I love you!!
197. sometimes I just dont give a fuck and I want to get wasted and high and bang you, but then I'm worried about guilt
198. i have 3 secrets on this list and my fourth is im more attracted to girls than guys but i love dick so much i could never be a full on lesbian
199. I cheated on you with 2 ex-boyfriends. One was just head.
200. I have never trusted a girlfriend,because i have been cheated on so many times
201. First of all #133 is crazy! I too feel like shit after eating carbs. I think I am a exercise anorexic but more importantly I am angry with my significant other and I don't know if I will ever get over it. I love him but resent him so much. I feel like I've been cheated in our relationship. Even though I love him if I could go back I would have left him.
203. Plain and simple...My sister gave me head when i was to young to have any idea what what happening. She did.
205. I hate my husbands grandmother. I want her to hurry and die so I can go shopping with her money.
206. My friend was house sitting, and borrowed a vibrator and stuck it in his ass. I said I wouldn't tell.
207. My cousin in law said racist things to my infant son, I want him to suffer for what he said!
208.im noly 15 and i love him
209. I'm sorry I lied to my gf C about talking to my ex's. I never cheated but lying is cheating. I didn't want her to think I was a weak person. She is such a strong person, she seemed to have no problems telling her ex to F off. I really was just weak and all that really matters is her. I should have never lied to her about anything!
210. I want him to stick around because I'm afraid to be alone.
211. I loved him. I changed schools without warning. I thought about you everyday, and sometimes I would go back to that school and try to find you when you got out, but you go on the bus so I coulden't find you. I come back and find out you moved to Oklahoma. I knew you liked me back, but we never did anything. I shoulden't have said what I said. I gave you the wrong idea that I didn't like you, when I really did. Now I'm 13, and it has ben almost a year, and I still think about you.
212. I secretly want to be fat.
213. I am jelous of my husbands past.
214.You dont love me anymore and I love you more than ever. Sometimes I wish you'd cheat on me so you would know how much you love me.
216. the bruises aren't from football......
217. Lately I feel like those girls who are just seeking attention by having sex. But all I want from guys is to get laid.
219. I secretly make guys think I like them, when I don't, to make them ask me out so I can break thier hearts.
220. i fluded the bathroom!
221.You haven't lost your smile at all, it's right under your nose. You just forgot it was there :)
222. I did stuff with my ex and have felt guilty about it ever since. I think poorly of myself and think im to fat. I like a few people but cant decide what to do. and reading this list makes me feel horrible about the world we live in.
223. I hate tennis, but my dad wants me to be pro. I do it just to make him happy.
224.i like to move it move it!!
225.I told my aunt i didnt recieve her card with a hundred bucks in it..I found it and she sent me another card-I didnt tell her I found it and kept the 200 bucks.
226.i hate my dad with everything in me!
230.I don't really like myself. I'm very self conscious & never feel good about myself. Nobody knows they'll probably just think i'm stupid for thinking that. And for some reason I have a bad feeling about my boyfriend even though I love him.
233. i wish i were a boy......
234. My mother in law is a selfish bitch.
237. I cheated on you at homecoming
240.I've dropped everything for him.. and he doesn't even realize it. It just seems like he never notices.
242.I've had 2 abortions in less than a year.
244.I like 2 guys at the same time!!!!!!
247.i'm sick of you, you are all over guys, and it pisses me off, No i'm not jealous, you annoy me. Even though I say were friends, i don't feel that way. and you two need to get a room, he probley doesn't even like you...in fact i know he doesn't.
250.Im secretly in love with the guy that Ive been hanging out with for the past three years, and regardless if he knows or not, I doubt he feels the same. We know everything about eachother, talk to eachother all the time, tease eachother (well him teasing me more often then me him), and eve nwhen he makes me want to rip my hair out, I cant be angry at him for long. Ive tried getting over him, but the feelings dont fade. I guess I have to just let them die on there own =[
251.when i drive home i think about driving my car off the bridge
252. I am writing on this one because it is a palindrome, also because the spots around it are empty at the moment and I am conceited and wanted my secret to be noticed. I am a conceited bitch, I will be the first to admit it, but I really wish I wasn't. All I want is to be in love, and be loved. I just want my soulmate to just find me, grab me, and kiss me. I would give up all of my dreams if I had to just to find him.
255.I'm using you.
258.i have a bf and im in love with someone else. i have feelings for my bf, and i dont wanna hurt him. but when the love of my life moves out here, im gonna be with him. i want to tell my bf, but i just cant bring myself to it. i feel like im keeping secrets from him. and i still call the love of my life baby and tell him i love him even tho i have a bf.
262.why do bitches keep sayin my boy friend when u no it hurts
263.I would move there for you. all you'd have to do is ask.
264. everyone thinks about me as an outgoing person. . . until this one guy asked me out, and i said no. i told him that i didn't like him like that. . .but the truth is, that i do. i'm just too shy of a person. and the truth is, everytime i see him, i wanna kiss him.
266. I get down real easy and i feel inadequate most of the time. so i try to pull it off with a laugh =D
267. i wanna get down and dirrty with one of my guy friends.
268. i want to see him, i want him to know what he did to me
269. I like fucking my guy friends.
270. I have ugly stretch marks
271. I was so skinny in high school, I couldn't get a guy. They called me a lesbian.
272. i'm in love.
273. Sometimes I like giving head more than sex
274.you sucked at kissing, and i faked it.
275. there's this guy in my class that's so sexyy, i wanna fuck his brains outt
277.I'm just with him to make you jealous....its not working so well is it?
278. after 6 boyfriends, i still love my ex. . he was my first, and when he left. . . part of me died. oh, yea. and uhh. #133 needs help
279.im afraid to have sex AGAIN..sorta.
280. My mistake was not leaving him when I wanted to, then I got pregnant. Now I have to deal with him for many more years. Why won't he keep sending the check and leave me alone? Jerk!
281.im fucking a guy with a girlfriend and i dont care
283.I really want to smoke but I can't. I'd lose friends and respect
284.Ive Fallen in love. i want to be w/ her the rest of my life...i love her with all my heart..i dream about her every night and when our lips touch....awww man
285.I;m 13 and 80 pounds and stil think im fat.
286.i wish i gave head.
287.i wish i still was with him, even everything that happened, im still deeply in love with him. and i dont think he knows it. = / i just want everything to go back to the way it was. im tired of being so unhappy, because without him, i feel like i have nothing. i stay up at night crying, trying to figure out..wat happened, and how can we try again. everytime i c he is on. i get nervous. im so lost. i need somone to help me out.
288. I THINK I LOVE A MARRIED MAN. WHY?
290 I want to have a great girlfriend like my friends have, so i steal theirs : (
292.All I want to do is hold him in my arms and tell him i love him so much. I love him so much that even talking to him on the computer is hard to hold back my feelings. I wonder constatly why he broke my heart and stepped on it in a matter of 5 mins. I miss him and I wish i saw him at school but he has to be off at college. I want him with me right now and to hear him say that everything is alright.
294.low-self esteem
296. i like tiffany!!!!=]
297. I masturbate.
298. I am seriously afraid of failure. So much so it holds me back.
299. Everyone thinks I'm amazing and strong. I HATE MYSELF. I WANT TO PUT A BULLET IN MY HEAD. I'm a shitty manipulative person who can't figure out her own shit.
300.I'm only 13 years old and I have been smoking for 3 years